My milk has gone sour, my fruit has shriveled, even my carrots have become slick from neglect. Most disturbing of all, my cream cheese has become moldy. Strangely enough, my English muffins and bagels have maintained their integrity and not succumbed to the gods of food decay. I guess life really is full of little surprises. I've been living on an erratic diet of Coke (the soda, not the powder), Starbuck's Chai tea and Lean Cuisines...No wonder I feel so fucking fabulous.
I've always had a sharp mind, able to remember numbers, birthdays, appointments without the need for calendars or planners. Now I can't remember to grab my purse before I leave class. I lose my words, simple words that I've used thousands of times since I learned them.
I want to sleep all the time, but when it's actually time for bed, I just lie there. Too exhausted to get up, yet unable to let sleep find me. So I drug myself up, which doesn't actually lead to restful sleep, but at least it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something. I alternate between being freezing cold and sweating, uncomfortably hot beneath my covers.
It scares me.
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